Well, here it is. The page where you can find out about me.. It won’t be interesting, I’m not great at writing about myself & knowing my last few attempts and this, it’s going to be bad.
My name is Jana, I am an 18 year old female and I live in Christchurch, New Zealand. I would go on about how great NZ is, but this is a page about me, no?
I was born in Auckland, NZ, which is in the north island, and I currently live in the south. I’ve lived with my mum for most of my life, I’m a huge mummy’s girl. Without here I don’t know where I’d be now. I think she’s done a good job at raising me! Being a single mother of 2 isn’t easy.
Education;
I would like to say how smart I am, and how I’m currently attending some kind of awesome university, but that would be lying. I’m not the most smartest person in the world, I dropped out of “Public school” at the end of 11th form (16 years old) because the school didn’t offer the courses I wanted, I was put in “dumb classes” because I started that school half way through the year, and the last year I attended that school, I was sick for the most part. So I went on correspondence and gained level 1 & 2 NCEA.
When I was attending “public” school, my favorite subject was History. I loved going to that class and taking notes, learning about WWII was my favorite sub-subject of History, even know I watch docos on the History Channel about it, there is just something about Hitler that fascinates me, just to get into his mind.. I think I would of loved to of stayed on and taken History another year, and if I did go to Uni it would of definatly been a subject I would take. I also love learning about Royal history, but we didn’t study that in my class, so I do most of my reading via fiction books. Stories always make things more interesting!
Eating / Depression;
I like to eat, a lot. My mum was a great cook and I’d like to blame it on her, but it’s my self control that now gets me down, as I don’t live anywhere near her. I weight is something horrible, and I’m not very fit. A few years ago I started Weight Watchers and lost 10kgs~. But last year I feel into a bad depression and substituted Anti-depressants with food. Bad mistake. I gained all of my weight back. It’s really heart breaking to see myself go through this & I am supposed to be getting back “on” the wagon. It’s just a little hard to get motivated, but my job helps!
Work;
Speaking of which, my job, which I love, is dairy farming. Yep, I milk cows. Although that’s not the majority of what I do! The job is very physical (Hence why it helps with weight loss), especially around Calving Season, which at time of writing is now (Late July to September sometime). This is my second season in the industry, and my second farm I’ve worked on. Second farm in 2 years? Sounds bad I know, but my old bosses.. well. Perhaps we won’t go there.
I hope to go on to a managing position, and eventually a share milker or own my own farm! It’s bloody hard work, and it’s going to take awhile to get there, but I love what I do!
A dairy cow.
Love life;
Well, where to begin on this? I know I’m only 18, but I have been through some shit in the past! I had the stupid clingy girlfriend / teenage romance.. things. Looking back I feel like an idiot. But now.. I am not. 
Now, I have Jared. He’s South African, and moved to NZ a few years ago (Coming up 4 or 5 this year). We meet on IRC, just as friends, and began texting each other etc. I think around a year later, give or take a few months, we meet up. Fell in love & here I am, at his house, writing my about page out on his PC. 
Farming bought me closer to Jared, as I was living in Auckland when I was applying for farming jobs, I was applying everywhere, but the place that accepted me just happened to be down the road from him! It’s awesome to be so close to him, and even though I still don’t see him all the time like normal couples do, (Due to my work / his uni) I think sometimes it’s a good balance, although I always bloody miss him.
The personality;
Being around the internet a few years now, on a lot of forums, run a few websites, fought a few lame fights, it’s been bought to my attention that I am a little outspoken online. I say tell the truth, and I say what I mean. I am in no way “Politically correct”, and because I am not “educated” the way I word my sentences come out rather bluntly, and offend a lot of people. But in real life.. I tend to only offend my boyfriend, only because we’ve been raised differently.
I am shy and I don’t have many friends, I “matured” at a young age and think a lot of things my peers do is stupid or not fun. Although now-a-days I am trying to fit in as I don’t have many friends, and I think I need them! Sometimes I can be quiet mature, doing things that make sense, good for my job.. things that are not expected of me. Other days I can be fucked and screw around like everyone else. I’m like a normal person! Although I want my “mature” side to come out more for the sake of my job.
I swear a lot, and I can’t spell and I’m not the best with grammar. Sometimes I think before I speak, I’m headstrong & one of those people who won’t back down from a fight even if I realize I’m wrong. I am, however, also one of those people who will come back and apologize for being in the wrong an hour or so later.
I hate to disappoint people, even if it’s nothing major, and perhaps sometimes I don’t think things through. I see something I want to do, or get an idea in my head, and I must do it.
I don’t smoke or drink (often) and on the odd occasions I do drink, I don’t get “off my face”. I’ve seen the effects of what it’s done to my dad and other family members, and I think this perhaps may be the reason why I also don’t fit in with my own peers. I prefer beer / hard liquor as opposed to pre-made sweet drinks. That doesn’t tend to go down well with girls my age.
In a happy mood.
Random things about me;
- I think there are to many immigrants in my country. Which is funny because guess what Jared is?
- I wear glasses. They piss me off.
- If I don’t enjoy dairy farming the hole way through, then I want to be a teacher or a nurse.
- I am prone to depression. Not “OMG I broke up with my boyfriend and now I’m going to cut myself” depression, but “I have no idea why I’m here, what’s the point of life, poor me, why have I got depression?” depression.
- Honestly, I think if you’re not a “colored” Maori in NZ, you have to jump through hoops to get any help from the government. Although this has been proven many times with family and friends.
- I am a white Maori
- I can only sing Maori, and even then I don’t know what the words mean.
- I’m not the biggest fan of my father & I disapprove of his drug smoking / beer drinking life style.
- I wish I was a fun loving, club goer, lots of friends, size 14-12 pretty female. (Only the female part is right.
) - I have a eye condition which makes me look Asian. I am not.
- I prefer to live alone then with people, unless it’s my mum. Even then I get sick of her and my sister.
- I have one half sister, and one half brother. Cody (Half brother) is around 22, and is my dads son, and Georga (spelt correctly!) is 13, and my mothers youngest daughter. They are not related to each other.
- My mum and dad are not together and I can’t remember a time when they where.
And now, more photos;
Me and my sister.
Myself and Bradly, a friends son.