Lately I’ve been dying to get out, be social, have fun and make friends. The issue with this is that you need at lest one friend to go out with, no?
I don’t have any friends in the area I live in. I don’t know my work mates too well, but they seem like pretty cool people, they’re all fucking piss heads, but you know what? I don’t care. I don’t mind getting drunk off my face, and if it’s how to make friends among my co-workers, then bring on the hang overs.
I was actually invited to a 18th birthday down at Dairy 21. I was going to go, I even went out and bought some pre-made strawberry Daquri. But I just couldn’t bring myself to go out. And I hate that. I want to go out, I want to go clubbing2, and I want to be with people my own age.
I even went out to Jay Jays and bought some “Clubbing” clothes. Just some tights, and some dress/top things. But who do I go with? How do I get myself out there? Jareds friend has said we should go into town. And I’m fully going to. Jared doesn’t want to come. The way he’s been bought up.. well, drinking will KILL YOU. No, OK it’s not that bad, he would just rather play games on his PC and ruin his young years, then go out and act like a fool.
Yes. I want to go out and act like a fucking fool. But my personality won’t allow me. I just want to be a stupid fucking 18 year old drunk, dancing, singing, laughing, eating MacDees at 3am in the morning, and ye, I wouldn’t mind a fucking hang over.
I really hate who I’ve become.
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I know how you feel. I have been sick for most of my life. From when I was four until I was seventeen, I was depressed. I got one awesome year and a bit, before I fell ill with ME. I socialised my ass off that year, and then I had to stop.
I hate being a loner, but I can’t do much about it.
You can though! So DO IT. Go out and meet people and get drunk! You deserve it.
You should really have a try. My parents didn’t allow me to go clubbing at all, but when they went overseas for a holiday, I snuck out with my friends for a clubbing night. After that, I’ve also attended a few similar parties with our law school. And you know, I’d never voluntarily go clubbing again. From those experiences, I’ve realised it’s not my type of thing, I never really have fun, I hate people stepping on my feet and tipping their alcohol over my pretty clothes. But yes, it’s definitely the type of thing you should have a go at when you’re young.
@Rilla:
I want to enjoy it.
but I guess if it doesn’t suit me.. then fuck it. 
I also want to go on a rural pub crawl.. it’s a little different to clubbing, 
There is nothing wrong with wanting to go out and have a good time! I think you should go for it!! I hope that you are able to find some people to go out with. Don’t feel guilty about it. Just live it up while you can!
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I’m actually the opposite, although I’ve already done all that and, while it is fun initially, you realise clubs are boring without alcohol and hangovers are no fun.
You’re young though! You should be out having fun, it doesn’t mean you have to drink but if your colleagues all do it could be a good way to get to know them.
Let go and have fun!