Me and my boyfriend have broken up. I need somewhere to vent is all. Some help to set my head clear.
First it was my idea1 because I wanted him to actually “stay” the night. I wanted to be serious. He told me he didn’t take us serious. 2 years and we’re not serious? Everything I’ve put into this relationship and we’re not serious?
That cut me pretty deep. If anyone pays attention, I’m depressed.
And this guy who works here.. matt… he’s been helping me out. Supporting me. Just basicly being my rock while Jared (The ex) has been busy play wow, (Sorry, who said WoW isn’t anti social..?). So anyhow.The other night after I said to Jared that we should actually break up because of what he said, I was crying myself to sleep. Except I couldn’t sleep.. I texted Matt, and he invted me over to be consoled.
You know what I wanted from Jared? To hug. To sleep next to him, that’s what I wanted. And I got it from Matt. I’ve been waiting 2 years for Jared to just snuggle and sleep with me, and I just went next door and got it instead.
Basicly the issue with Jared why I wanted to take a “break” was because maybe if I missed him enough (Which I do) then I wouldn’t mind not being able to cook / sleep / huggle with him, and just being happy I have him at all. But after he said we’re not serious… Well, that dropped it for me. It’s over.
I know I’m young. But I want serious. Not some 2 year fling. I still love him. A lot. THere are other reasons to the break up. Which I’ll post on Friday night / Saturday because we’re meeting up to discuss things.
- Well, a break [↩]
No related posts.
Emsz
March 10, 2010 at 8:58 am
I’m sorry to hear that Jana. Breaking up with someone you love always sucks. Just be glad that you have a good guy now, who doesn’t spend all his time playing WoW instead of being with you.
Regina
March 10, 2010 at 12:45 pm
Aww, *hugs*. Two years and he doesn’t consider it serious?! I personally think you made the right choice, and I hope you feel better!
Audrey
March 10, 2010 at 1:06 pm
Needing hugs is one thing, but needing a man in your life is perhaps a little unhealthy. It’s not the time to worry over that though when you’ve got bigger things going on. Don’t let Jared take advantage of you anymore, and be sensible when you guys talk later. He needs to respect you and you both need to examine where the relationship is headed for each of you if it is decided to continue.
Best wishes.
Jana
March 11, 2010 at 8:26 pm
@Audrey:
That comment sounds so much like what my mum said. Great minds think alike. Thanks for the best wishes, I’m nurvious. Scared. Argh.