It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. I’ve been meaning to for the last couple of days. There are so many things on my mind. So many things I want to get out, to talk about and to just.. clear my mind. But it’s hard because whats on my mind is hard to put into words.
So today I guess I’ll talk about my plans for this year. Idk.
I cease working on the 12th of May. It’s basically a “Holiday that I won’t go back to work from”. I assume1 that I can stay in my house until the last day of May, because that’s when my contract ends. Paid holiday ftw? No. Not at all.
My house is still a mess and un-sorted out. I must sort it out so it’s easy to pack up and shift everything.
So right now, I’m looking for full time jobs. I need to work full time so I can afford to pay off my car, pay rent or “Board” and my insureance, food / power costs. And whatever other costs incur with living in a flat. I must also find a flat to live in..
The reason I am not going back to farming next season is because I need to study! I really need UE because I’ve decided I want to be one of 3 things. A midwife / nurse, a teacher, or a Dairy owner. Whichever I pick, I need to go to Uni. I mean, there are plenty of dairy owners out there who didn’t go to Uni, but I would like to do a farm manager diploma. I need that qulification behind me to get me further I feel.
Part of my depression this time around is because I am not studying. I’m not engaging my brain. Also, it’s my age groups time to be going to Uni. I feel exluded. Yes, I know that’s my own fault.. And man am I kicking myself.
I’m applying for a carer job. Yeap. Showering old people, changing their beds, brushing their teeth.. Awesome stuff like that. Apparently it’s a well paying job. But the reason I’m going for the job is that maybe it’ll somehow give me a foot in the door to nursing. A taste of what caring for people is like.
If you look at the 3 things I want to do, you’ll notice I want to help people or animals in some way. Because I’m nice.
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Don’t stress too much about going to university. I was almost 21 when I started, and it really doesn’t matter how old you are once you get there. Learning is learning, no matter what age you do it at. And you can succeed at any age.
I know how you feel about being depressed when you’re not engaging your mind. Over the summer holidays, I got really down about not being in class every day, but I perked right back up when classes started again. It feels good to be doing something with my time!