Wow
Me and my boyfriend have broken up. I need somewhere to vent is all. Some help to set my head clear.
First it was my idea1 because I wanted him to actually “stay” the night. I wanted to be serious. He told me he didn’t take us serious. 2 years and we’re not serious? Everything I’ve put into this relationship and we’re not serious?
That cut me pretty deep. If anyone pays attention, I’m depressed.
And this guy who works here.. matt… he’s been helping me out. Supporting me. Just basicly being my rock while Jared (The ex) has been busy play wow, (Sorry, who said WoW isn’t anti social..?). So anyhow.The other night after I said to Jared that we should actually break up because of what he said, I was crying myself to sleep. Except I couldn’t sleep.. I texted Matt, and he invted me over to be consoled.
You know what I wanted from Jared? To hug. To sleep next to him, that’s what I wanted. And I got it from Matt. I’ve been waiting 2 years for Jared to just snuggle and sleep with me, and I just went next door and got it instead.
Basicly the issue with Jared why I wanted to take a “break” was because maybe if I missed him enough (Which I do) then I wouldn’t mind not being able to cook / sleep / huggle with him, and just being happy I have him at all. But after he said we’re not serious… Well, that dropped it for me. It’s over.
I know I’m young. But I want serious. Not some 2 year fling. I still love him. A lot. THere are other reasons to the break up. Which I’ll post on Friday night / Saturday because we’re meeting up to discuss things.
Oh. And I’m “With” Matt. You know why? He makes me happy. And he’s here. He’s here to hold me. To love me. Even if I don’t love him as much as Jared2 I need a guy in my life. Idk why. I just, need to be held.
